Finding Myself

Blogs are supposed to be about talking about what's going on in their life, right? Well, I now will.

This topic isn't really touchy, but it is to some people. Christianity and who you are. Since I come from a christian background, and I believe in God, people think I shouldn't like certain things like Doctor Who, secular music, Harry Potter, stuff like that, things that aren't "christian". People can like whatever, but it all depends on where you stand in life. I go to a youth group and I've ventured out to many many other youth groups. Some are more cliquey than others, but this one is pretty cliquey. I've been going to this church that the youth group is at for years and years, and still, no one knows who I am, or who anyone in my family is. I think that's pretty sad. I've known some of those kids for years, and still, no one knows who I am, but I know them. I feel as if I'm closer to the older kids than the younger kids around my age, which I guess isn't too bad of a thing. The girls are all in their groups, the guys are in their groups, no one talks to the new kids except for the people that have been to that youth group their whole life.
So, since I've been falling away from God, I decided to go to my youth leader and meet with her. Her name is Sarah and I've known her ever since I was born. Sarah is the most toughest girl I've ever met, and she's not afraid to speak out and tell people what she thinks. Since I've been falling, I decided to talk to her. So, a couple days ago, my dad gave me a verse because my mom must've told him that I've been lacking time with God.
My dad gave me Psalms 1:1-3 which says "Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor stands in the path of sinners, nor sits in the law of the sinners, and in His law he meditates day and night. He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he does shall prosper."


Which pretty much means, this person isn't going to hang out with the wrong crowd when he knows that they're not doing good things and they'll stick with God and they'll survive through His word. It honestly took me a while to realize that's what it meant. I talked with Sarah, and she prayed for me. God gave me a vision while we were praying, and it was a tree by a river, and the water was impure, the tree was about to die because the seasons were changing and the water was terrible, the tree was starting to wither, God said "I will send pure water" then the water was clean, and the tree became healthy and was alive once more.


In my situation, where at Homelink, people go there to not be judged, and they don't talk much of religion, but since I might be hanging out with the wrong people, God will be sending more "clearer water" well, more christian people my way. I believe I can make it, and get a stronger connection with God. Sarah also made me think of reasons why I'm here. My reasons were: art, my parents, Lanette(A family friend is pretty much my mother), Geddy and Bowie Avery, Kalli, Sarah, and to make people smile. I, myself, am pretty satisfied with these things/people/reasons why I'm around. I love each and every single one of those people more than anything else. They were the people that really had a huge impact on my life, and they are always there for me whenever I need someone. It's really awesome to have some people like that if you need someone to talk to or help you sort out a problem.

(The play "Starship")
I'm really grateful for what I have and I can't wait to see what's coming my way.

Question:
What're you thankful for?